I feel hopeless and dejected, give me some strong advice please :(

People give me your impression in diets. What do you eat for obtaining remission?
What about fibers?
What about carbs?
What about whole raw fruits?
What about meat?
What about milk?
What about rice?
What about steamed vegetables?

I'm sick, I'm tired to be sick but I can not find the right diet, and everything I eat seem to provoke me disconfort. I really start to think vegetable juices could be the last and finishing option for me. But it's so hard I am afraid. I weight only 59 kg (height 1.74) and I am so weak.

It was two months I avoided gluten and casein and yeasts. I noticed huge improvements at the begin. Then I introduced meats and I felt also better. But at a certain point I should have done something wrong then I lost the right track.

I'm trying kefir but I don't know if casein is doing harm.
Today felt depressed and hopeless I ate bad things. Now I don't know what to do. I feel I can not handle traditional doctors neither surgery, I am concerned they could leat me to death and I don't want to die! I have this bad monster since eight years, never in remission, I stay always at home, don't take any medicine (everything just did not work for me) and I feel I am hopeless and stupid. I want to stay better, I don't know what to do. I feel diet is important as everything starts from that but I can not handle anything. Maybe there's something I am wrong, I can not believe anything I ate prevents the healing of my colon. Tweet